Saturday, January 16, 2010
Dumpster Diving and Contra dancing
I woke up several times, but convinced myself to go back to sleep, then finally got up at ten thirty, and I read the paper, realized there were cool pictures in the paper, took the old papers out of the recycling bin, searched through them for good pictures, cut out the good pictures, rinse, spin, repeat. Andrew was home as well, he didn't have his internship either, and he made the grocery list on Excel, cleaned the basement, and other random parts of the house while we were just hanging. At one point, he went upstairs, grabbed his hoodie, and declared that he was going out. Never left. It's hard to decide what to do if you aren't comfortable with the neighborhood.
Around twelve I got a text from Lindsay, who is our petty cash manager, telling me that if I get the list of kitchen supplies that we need ready, we can get it okayed by Kim and then get it when we got grocery shopping. I had no idea where to start, so I took everything out of its spot and put it on the counters, island, and table. Once I got to the lid-to-pot stage, I snagged a very willing Andrew to help sort. There ended up being seven lids that didn't have pots. What the heck?
There were also countless appliances that I had no idea we had, nor thought that the house would ever need--my favorite was the cappiccino maker, but we also had an electric wok, a coffee grinder, and so much more! Once we got through what we needed and what we didn't need, the duty was putting it back into the cabinets. The pots which were on top of the fridge were located into a cabinet with the level of shelf moved. Yay for no more ugly storage!
The box of extra lids, and excess cutting boards (unless the entire house is willing to cut up whatever is being made into dinner, I don't think there will ever be a need for seven cutting boards...), and whatever else excess that made no sense to be left around was rounded up into a big box and put in the back of the house car, for delivery to the intentional community or the thrift store.
After that process, which took a couple hours, Emily and I somehow convinced Andrew to come Contra dancing. The idea that it was basic pulled him in; even though I knew the original reason for him coming was to go dumpster diving. Emily described it as a controlled walk, and though I'd never been, helped with the mini lesson that insued at Mai Tri (an intentional Community; pronounced "My Tree"). Andrew, Emily, and I ate supper at the intentional community house. That was a great experience in itself. They had a tomato quinoa (which I've learned pronounced KWIN OH a, and Emily pronounces KWEEN i WA), some delicious banana muffins, and this cheese pizza that parts of it I was unsure of. The meal was scrumptious nonetheless, and the presence of nutritional yeast at the table, and the absence of a meaty main dish gave away the vegetarianism at the table.
I talked with them about my internship and peace studies, as uninformed as I am, and one of the younger guys wanted to hear about my experience after it was over, as he was working on lobbying that educators be required to teach peace studies in secondary school.
The contra dancing lesson was very informing--it's similar to square dancing, and eye contact is a big part of it, and as Ryan (or Bryan) described, it's a way "to bring touch back into our lives."
Then we drove back to Emily's house, met her roommate Kendra, who Emily invited to contra dancing, who came, and was very nice and fun. While at their house, I learned that Emily and her roommates are all pianists (! :D) and have a grand piano in the basement, which I located and played (although we could not locate and turn on the light switch) while we were waiting for Emily to change.
We drove over to the place where the contra dancing was located. It was in an old old amusement park, called Glen Echo, in the ballroom. We arrived a little late, paid our way, and I got a pin that said, "I'm a New Dancer." We watched for the first dance, then hopped right in. My first partner's name was Tom, as his name-pin said, and he helped me through the first song. It was a lot of fun. I had so many partners, but I suppose everyone does in contra dancing. I can almost remember all their names, but not quite. After Tom, there were several doubles of the people I danced with: Steve, Don #1, Don #2, another Tom, I danced with two Davids, and I don't remember many of my other partner's names. It was great fun. The dance that I didn't get the most was the one that ensued directly after the halftime break. I had been talking to this guy named David who had gone to Oberlin Conservatory for the recorder (I didn't know anyone learned to play the recorder after elementary school--needless to say, there wasn't much competition, and so I asked him to dance, but I just couldn't get the dance.
I accidently partnered up with some creeps who wanted to pull me really close. Oh well, you live and you learn. Besides, before we started, Emily and Ryan reminded us that you always have the choice to pull back. And so I did, with dignity. Although the guy never did get it. And dancing with the creeps always alerts you to the gentlemen of the dance, who I wanted to dance with instead.
After contra dancing, we were all warm, then cold with our sweat, as it is still close to freezing outside, though warming up. We sat around waiting for the last dance to end (which was a waltz, and not as many people participated in the waltz (although I did once, and an older man showed me how to waltz), then we left and drove over the Trader Joe's, near Bethesda, and went straight for the dumpsters!! I was really excited about this. I still am and totally want to go again! Even though the sight and smell of sour cream kinda makes me want to barf (there were some containers of it that were busted open in one of the bags I was looking through, got all over my hands) We found some awesome stuff! Some still-cold 96/4 lean ground beef, some bread, bagels, a plethera of sliced apples, some fiesta dip, and my favorite--a multitude of muffins! I climbed right into the dumpster, and got these things. On the way out of the dumpster, I lost my center of gravity... and fell right back in. But got out without any worry. Andrew and I drove back to the house, put the food in the fridge, and went to bed.
I had a muffin and some yogurt for breakfast this morning.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Day One. Of whatever I'm beginning.
I woke up at eight, like I have been for the past few days. Got ready like normal, wore a nice shirt and some jeans, and headed out the house toward the metro. As I was walking, I heard Marty's voice in my head, telling me to be open with my neighbors, and having an observation circle. So the entire, sunny, beautiful walk to the metro, I was seeing people and saying hello. Almost everyone says, "How are you?" with their "Good Morning," although it's rhetorical. I got one "Hey Beautiful." According to Corrie, who is working at the Rape and Crisis Center for Women, if it makes you feel good, it's not harrassment, but I do think that there is a line. Jasmine told me to introduce myself next time, be like, "It's Grace, but you were close!" and Jess told me to respond, "Hey Handsome." I've got a lot of tricks up my sleeve.
I got on the metro with no worry, and read "Animal, Vegetable, Mineral" until Tenleytown. It took a little longer than I expected (which I will remember for the future trips). Then I arrived, signed in, threw my coat and my bag through the security stuff, and got my name tag. Then I walked up the stairs and tried to locate room 207, and the first 207 I saw was an office, so I quickly resorted to asking an adult watching the hallways, and he pointed me in the right direction. Then I saw the class that I shadowed in earlier in the semester. Nobody really said anything to me, but I think they recognized me to a point. They had their school paper which they were reading, and I glanced through it, and enjoyed the articles--they were really well written. It was a better paper than Streetsboro's. And Streetsboro won awards.
The class didn't really do anything. They were ending their semester and so they did course evaluations, and then there were two girls that graduated but took a semester off came and spoke about their experiences during their time away from America. One girl went to India for three months and told about what she did there, learning yoga and mediation, going on a ten day trek on the Himalayas, and about the spicy food, and the sickness that the people she went with got. The irony is that she knows someone at EMU. They went to camp together.
The other girl talked about her experience in Peru with teaching English in a home for sexually assaulted teenagers and working at a Daycare which had no outside. It was good to hear her story and also to see that not everyone has their future planned out and are taking breaks from school.
Last night Lindsay reminded me that even though my internship is out of the box, there are still people who are going to want to hire me because I did an internship with Colman McCarthy. I'm happy with that thought, but I definitely want to be able to do things.
Because today was a shadowing experience, I wonder if the rest of the days are going to be like this. Maybe I can convince Colman to let me to a little teaching with some of the things that I am well-informed of, and see what these students think.
Today in class, while they were looking at the paper, there was a crossword puzzle with an answer that was Lady Gaga. One of the guys in the back row asked me what I thought of her, and I basically said that it was a love-hate relationship, I love the way she writes songs, and the originality and musicality, but I hate the costumes, and that her music is so sexual. Some of the guys were talking about how she was a hermaphrodite, which as far as I know is a rumor. I think she's a woman, just because she's bisexual doesn't mean she's a hermaphrodite. One of them asked me if I thought she was good looking, and I said that with out all the makeup and the costumes, I thought she was.
Anyway, it's really kind of awesome that even though we are in DC, there are still connections to people from EMU that I wouldn't expect, like Amanda, who went to India, knowing Amanda Grace from EMU. I rode the metro back, got to Brookland around 12:00, and walked back to the house with my observation circle expanding as I went. It's hilarious, but important at the same time. I can't be like a tourist who listens to their iPod everywhere and gets mugged because they weren't paying attention.
So Jess, Jas and I went running on the National mall. Which is your Capitol, Washington Monument, big lawn and pool (but not for swimming) area. Which is not a short distance. First, we ran to the Metro, at Jess' fast pace, which is not my fast pace. It is, in fact, my "bookin' it" pace. But I kept up pretty well to the Metro. We got off at Judiciary Square, which was about 3rd or 4th St NW, and ran to First, and started seeing recognizable things, like the Capitol, and so we ran to that. My pace was still a lot slower than the one that they chose, and I was realizing that not running over break was catching up with me, but I tried really hard to keep a pace that wasn't too far behind them, and not stop and walk for too long, or too many times. But inevitably, I was feeling exhausted, and my lungs were not very happy with me (and still aren't, I'm coughing up the gunk that has been building up from my lack of running days again), I told them I wanted to find a Metro to go back to the house. So Jess and Jas decided that we should run me to the Metro. Still at their pace, but I didn't stop to walk at all this time (there were just a lot of intersections that we had to wait to cross :). ) We found one--an Orange Line Smithsonian, and I was on my way. It was easy to find my way from there, but I felt a bit inadequate in a crowded car being sweaty, redfaced, and alone. When I got off at Brookland, I accidently stepped on someone's foot when I was leaning back to let another man pass through, and he rudely retorted, "Excuse you." Not my favorite D.C. resident. But maybe we'll someday be best friends. Ha. Ha. I was chilly so I ran back to the house from the Metro, at Grace fast pace, and stopped when I wanted to (right before I crossed the road to the house, but who is counting?). I told Sanjay when he let me in, and asked how my run was that I need to run more, and I know I'm not used to the hills and the sidewalks of D.C., but I also said that I need to run more. Corrie, our own Cross-Country champ, is training for a marathon at some point this spring, and likes to sprint up hills, and at the end of a run. Me, though, I run for fun, and I wasn't having any fun on the mall today, I just kept thinking about how I couldn't do it, and how out of shape my lungs were. Oh how I miss running with Ellie on the track at EMU at our own pace. It was so great to be able to get together with her over break though, even though we didn't run, we went to the zoo, which was a blastus.
So as probably only two people know, aka my parents, I have a Splenda addiction. Ever since I discovered it's awesome calorielessness when I started Weight-Watchers in 7th grade, I've been including it into my daily life--diet pop, no sugar added ice cream, in various recipes that I like to make, in my morning oatmeal, in my homemade hot chocolate--you know the drill. But partially because I'm trying to save money, and partially because I forgot it in the hurry of leaving for EMU last Friday, I decided to quit using it. Spending money on soft drinks is completely pointless, especially if there are wholesome beverages like milk, tea, coffee, juice (which for some reason I still shy away from even though the kind we have is 100% juice pulp included), and of course, water! (and most of these are free when you have a house budget that includes them!). So I'm quitting diet soda. (Yay me! I'm being mature and finding a balance with my drinking problems!) Nobody except Bryan (which is fine for Bryan) drinks it anyway, and he walks to the gas station for it. And I'm still having oatmeal in the morning, but sweetening it with fruit (when it's around, we eat fruit like it's the only thing in the house), and honey. And I had a cup of hot chocolate the first night we were here, but only a cup, 100% milk (sometimes I just use water for less calories... I have problems), with a tablespoon of cocoa powder, and a teaspoon of sugar was tasty enough. So today, I decided that I wanted to make a coffee frappiccino. Fail. I cheaply added only two teaspoons of sugar to it, a half cup of whole milk (The 1% was in the back of the fridge), four ice cubes, and like twelve ounces of coffee that was left in the pot from this morning (again, I'm not going to let someone pour it down the drain tomorrow when they make coffee in the morning.) The milk fluffed pretty well, but it was pretty un-frappiccino-like, and bitter to boot. But I still drank it. Because I'm stubborn, and I think that that much sugar should suffice. Obviously I'm not willing to put sugar into my body. My problem is that I know that if we had Splenda in the house, I would use it, and use it a lot. And I don't have a problem with drinking diet soda if I have the option. Zach has consistently tried to convince me that the artificial sweeteners can cause seizures and cancer, and other bad things, but of course I think I'm invincible and can't be beat... But I think that honey is better for you than cane sugar. And since I'm on this vegetarian kick maybe I'll just be healthy and cool.
But I think that the yogurt I included in my lunch had aspartame... like I said, if there's an option, I'll take it. I'll get better.
Lindsay and Andrew came back from registration at UDC with stories of issues and waiting forEVER for admitting and registering for classes. Talk about chaos. They gave them a pack of free stuff--with an expired calling card (which Lindsay would have given to me), some redeye reducer eyedrops, and condoms. So a discussion on whether EMU should have free condoms in the health center soon ensued.
The Vegetarian Chili and Cornbread for supper tonight, was AMAZING. We had it over rice. Ever done that? It made it even better! Never had it like that before.
We went to the Rec Center to play Volleyball with the locals tonight. I had a blast--and there were some people who came to play soccer afterward, and I asked them when their league would restart again--in March--so I have a chance to play! I'm really excited about that. Our volleyball games went well, despite my extreme suffering--I have the disease of overcompetitism... or over-aggression...
I have nothing to do tomorrow. Next week's internship work is Monday and Wednesday--almost nothing because the high schools are between semesters.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Ready, Set....(Almost time for Internships!!)
Today we talked about internships and assigned jobs for around the house. It was kind of difficult to find relevance in the information that Kim said about the internships--like overdressing the first day, asking to have weekly meetings with our supervisor, and even the first project that we have to do for our internships--a poster with out expectations within the internships, and also our personal goals. There was a poster on the wall behind us from someone who interned at Wooly Mammoth Theater, but my internship is so different from theirs that I'm not sure how much information I can take from my internship. As far as I know, with my own internship, I am going to be working in schools. And I'm going to be participating in discussion. and I guess I'll be learning of more roles after that. But it's still hard for me to be able to do the exact same poster type thing as everyone else.
So then we decided on the house jobs. The Nelson Good house (which is what this house is called), is a group home like an intentional community. So everyone has roles and committees so that we can keep the house from falling apart. There are Drivers, Shoppers, Watchmen, Postal Person, Maintenance, and so many other things!
One job that I was assigned for was to be the Kitchen Manager, which makes the list for groceries (and we get to go shopping for things that we need in the kitchen this semester). I'm also the Blog Writer for the group--keeping those connections with EMU, and also the Photographer. Just because I'm keeping the connections to EMU, I get to plan the Chapel that's in February.
Then we had Martie Langelman as our guest speaker after lunch. We had a reading from "Back Off", a book that she wrote about sexual harassment. It was enduring for the guys during the seminar, as she used them as props/ "muggers/rapists" examples, but we all got a kick out of it, and I think we all learned a lot. She told some VERY lively stories, and we could all tell that she had lived in the city all her life.
Because the oven was broken, we had to switch the menu around and we grilled for supper.
I ate vegetarian again. I just decided to do that because there are already two vegetarians in the house, and I figured that if we had a third of the people in the house to be vegetarian then it would be reasonable to have myself be a vegetarian. So now I'm working on seeing if this is something that I can do or not. I think I can. But I'll probably eat meat if we go to a ethnic restaurant.
This evening we had a great meal. Then we just hung out. We watched the Pilot episode of Arrested Development.
I got to talk to Anna before she left for Guatemala.
Going to bed soon.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
The "Youngsters"--a group up and coming!
We had a sandwich lunch, and then we headed out for our neighborhood scavenger hunt. My fellow hunter was Lindsay, and we got to discuss a lot--she asked me questions, and within my answers, I tended to elaborate a lot. We explored the area behind our house in our neighborhood--there's a friary and the Providence Hospital is back there--and we went to a Diner on 12th Street to see what they served for breakfast. We found out that the average house was (or could be) close to $500,000. We stopped at the Rec Center for a look around, and then we headed toward the Fransiscan Monastery to end our trip. We arrived, looked throught the gift shop, and I got kind of excited about the tour--there were catacombs, and the monastery is modeled after the Hagia Sophia! Then Lindsay and I realized that we forgot to visit one thing--the Icon Shop. I had no idea what kind of "icons" we'd be seeing, but as we walked down the two blocks to get there, it was pretty obvious that it was probably going to have something to do with Catholics. That's the kind of icons that were there--the pictures of Early Christian paintings of saints for Catholics to pray to. They pray to certain saints for certain things, and certain prayers for certain things. (One of the things I dislike about Catholics, that they pray to saints, but they are people too, and I accept that over what they pray for) Anyway, we went back to the Monastery, and started the tour. It was long and we were tired, but it was still heavily and beautifully decorated. We got to go through the entire monastery, which was a replica of a church in Jerusalem. Even the catacombs are a replica, and the stone wall was definitely a wallpaper of a sort. But there were still statues, and awesome mosaics, and sculptures, and domes (like Hagia Sophia). There were bones of two people there. Saint Innocent, who was a child that was martyred in the Early Christian time, and also some of the bones (his skull, for some reason, is in Rome) of another Dude with a very interesting name which I do not know. It was great when we got to walk back to the house together, and then start to relax again. We told Stories of Self--I told the story of how I wrote a song to introduce Ryan at the beginning of the year for Honors, then got my tongue pierced, and preformed it anyway. I talked about how I still thought it went well, but then how later in the semester some of the other Honors students told me that they couldn't understand anything I was singing. I was really glad that Jess shared why she was so into preventing EMU from investing in things that supported the war in Israel.
We had some amazing taco salad for supper, and then Lindsay decided that the entire house should got to the Rec Center to play volleyball. I was all for it, but I couldn't find the form that proved my residence in DC (which gets you free admission, because insurance covers it). I didn't ever find, it but still went along to play, and they didn't end up asking for it anyway.
When we got to the courts, there were already people playing. We came in, and Fets just started playing--he rotated into one of the teams already on the courts. We came in as the rest of the group slightly after him, and Tanya, a teammate from one of the two teams playing, came up to us, and asked us if we were going to play, and told us that it was an 18 and older playing game, but that since we came, we'd be allowed to play. I'm the only one in our group that is under 20, so they weren't sure how to take that. Our first two games were rough. We lost both pretty quickly, and so Lindsay called for a "practice". We volleyed in a circle, and practiced calling for the ball. Soon, we were getting confident and better, and when we started our second round of games, we had a lot more confidence, and though some funny things happened (like me hitting the ball backwards, under the net), we did score some points and get some good volleys going. After that we started getting involved in between our games, and I was a line judge. We continued playing until nine. By then, we were dubbed "the Youngsters" and we'd won some games. Andrew had been yelled at to be aggressive by the lady keeping score, and she almost hit him (jokingly) because he wasn't quite being aggressive enough. It was pretty hilarious. There was some good funny stuff. It was so fun, and we are planning on going back as a group on Thursday as well.
When we got back, Jess and I randomly decided to jam a little bit, and make sure that we play more and sing more. She's great harmony.
I'm excited about what's ahead, though a little nervous for my internship. In honesty, I'm kind of worried that I'm going to have to worry about money. Ugh. I hate that.
We assign jobs tomorrow! I'm looking forward to possibly shopping, and I think I want to have the two jobs of being the Blog Keeper and the Photographer.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Exploration (at the) Metro Station!
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Location Destination Exclamation: I'm in DC!
We left half an hour later. Reason? Baggage. It was quite puzzling, I was in disbelief that we would be able to take all my stuff, there was no room when she arrived. But we pushed, shoved, squashed, team-jumped on the trunk of her car to close it (unsuccessful), and crammed a "three" piece lamp in between the front seats. Then we tried to put her mirror back in the car, which was slid into the top of the ceiling until the nails were inches away from everything that was crammed in the back. Corrie held the mirror up with her head as we drove back to her house to leave it on the porch. And then we were on our way!
We got on 81, and headed north. Soon we were sailing down 66... until the signs started flashing "accident ahead, all lanes blocked" and then we sat in traffic, trying to switch lanes with no rear view, and worrying about our room situation. But we called the house, and found out that we each had our own room, the traffic cleared, and then everything was smooth as we arrived in the Motherland.
We happily arrived with much vigor, and unloaded our things after deciding that I was to have the room on the 1st floor and Corrie the second--we had another housemate's mom draw names, because we couldn't decide. Sanjay helped unload as well, and exclaimed about the fact that there were four guitars in the house! Along with a piano.
We had a meeting about the next day, got readings (which still have to be done), and then had pizza. I ate vegetarian. There was a broccoli pizza. Questions flew at dinner, "where's good places to run?" "Where's the closest group homes?" I asked about the closest soccer league.
So tomorrow holds great promises, with a visit to the Portrait Gallery, the National Zoo, the Eastern Market, and a morning run with Corrie and Jessica.
So tonight I slumber, and as my friends start classes tomorrow, I'm going to see the city.
And take lots of pictures.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
God truly opens your eyes, ears, and thoughts.
I'm a rather rebellious person, though I don't like to talk about it, and often rationalize these things as to being normal. Because it is normal to be a Mennonite pastor's kid and get your tongue pierced. And it's normal to be an Honors student at a high school, but give up being around your high school friends to go to a local university and be a junior in college before you graduate high school. And it really is normal to go to college with one major in mind, but change your mind a week in. But it isn't normal to finish the semester with those classes, despite the fact that you are not planning to use them in any way, shape, or form. Despite what others say, you have already filled your general education slip for that spot, and though you don't like to think about it, it was kind of a waste of money. (the good part is that you learned from it, you know a little bit more about science than you did, and discovered Chemistry wasn't that bad. And of course, the experience of knowing that it isn't something that you want to do.) It is normal to be completely in love with someone--you have a long distance relationship--but for them to be in Africa, and not heard your voice in nearly a month. And lastly, it's normal to go on a cross cultural your first year. But the people who know you also know that you were thinking about quitting college and going to do work in the mission field, but this option seemed like a good transition point, considering you didn't know what you wanted to major in, and finishing school as quick as possible was the original plan (didn't get those 60 credits for nothing), but now you have nothing to work from.
This might be a phase that I'm going through. Maybe I just want to be different from people. Maybe it's a psychological uniqueness, where I have to be different from people. I have to make my music, and hope they listen to the words so that they truly hear what's going on in my head. I have to dance around the point I want to say, because it's hard for me to be completely assertive with people who intimidate me. But either way, maybe my rebellion is making me distance people from me.
This isn't even about my "rebellion". I'm not rebelling to make a point to someone, or anyone. I'm not doing it for any ideals, although my vigorous-high-staked-almost-perfectionism could have something to do with that. Within that case, I've always had high standards for myself, being grades in school, and being better, doing things on purpose.
I've discovered, that though I have this attitude at the beginning, it becomes genuine very quickly. It's like high standards are my front that wear, and me being a nut this makes me define myself by my standards. This is so unrealistic, even though people define me by my standards, it's actually just a front I wear. (Which finally gets me to my point)
I don't care about grades. I don't care about academics. I can't care if I'm better than a person, because everyone has relative standards anyway.
What a rabbit trail.
What I have been getting to:
I was praying. Praying that God would show me what path I should take. What I should do this summer. and then after that I'm not worried about. What I know is that God wants me to do something--I don't know what yet-- with people. Seems easy.
I started to be aware of this. That people, and relationships were more important than school work to me, so much to the point that I was disappointed that there was no one to hang out with and I had to go study. The relationships I built at EMU weren't all deep. For me, I'm happy with just talking to someone that I wonder about, or having a quick, but interesting and funny conversation for twenty feet (of walking, in case you didn't catch my drift). I flit from conversation to conversation. It's just how I am. I can stay in the cafeteria for hours, just because there are new people to talk to, be funny with and catch up. I just want to know what's going on in their lives. Anyone really. It tickles me pink to know what makes a person happier than anything, or excited, or to know something significant about their lives that makes them different in what they do and why they do it, than anyone else. I thrive in relationships. And where some people benefit from a few deep friendships, I benefit from being deep with everyone! As you can imagine, even with my truly (almost one hundred percent, it seems) extroverted self, this passion takes a wear on me. Towards the end of the semester, when I was getting amazing amounts of work done, but also when so many people were finally opening up to me and I to them, I was so exhausted, and so unmotivated. I could keep going and keep going, but I had to force myself to do things that my body needed. Like exercise and sleep (I didn't have a problem making it to the cafeteria--that's where all the people were). When I got home, I was tired three hours after waking up in the morning, and I was getting headaches (though I'm pretty sure that had to do with dehydration). Now break is closing, and I'm heading in the direction of DC. A place where the communication will never stop, and I have less work than I did this semester. Either way. I know that right now, God is calling me to a place of work with people. Obviously--he stuck me in a high school. I have no idea where this is getting me. As of right now, I know I'm too impatient to go anywhere for more than a year-year and a half more of classes. So here I am trusting. As of now, the answer that I received may not even be for this summer, and maybe this summer will be another one of my weird mood swings (like WCSC was) and then I will have become obligated, but I will enjoy it nonetheless. Thus, whatever it is, I trust God.
That's what I have been doing all this time. But what? I still don't know yet. Sorry. It's an open-ended story as of now.
Nothing seems right yet. And I know if I wait too long, opportunities will close. But others will open. This I know, this I am calm with. God is my God, I trust Him. I know that the future is complicated. But this isn't my first rodeo, life is complicated.
As for my options right now, I'm still thinking about Camp Luz. But if something else kicks me in the rear I will not ignore it. I sort of feel like I have a calling to work in inner-city missions, and I feel like DC will either make or break that. But I have spent time in Harrisburg, and I am totally willing to assimilate to anything with people who are willing to listen.
This is where I am.
Sorry if you are confuzzled.
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
What I like about Rural Western Ohio
Sunday, January 03, 2010
New Year's Resolutions
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
New Year's Thoughts
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Reflections of a Time Worth Spent




No one said college would be easy. But coming from someone who took it voluntarily in high school to get away from the normality of the world was especially surprised when she discovered this was so.
Sunday, December 13, 2009
The Rough Stuff: Predators and Boys who Mean Well (Online and Off)
Monday, December 07, 2009
Finest Draftus of My Personal Impact Paper
Grace Engle
Personal Impact Project Paper
Awareness and “Taking Out” the Trash
The average American produces about 4.4 pounds of trash daily. Americans throw away 1200 pounds of compostable material each year. Almost 75% of the trash that Americans throw away is biodegradable (Recycling). When I set out to start my self-challenge, I had no idea that this was actually true. I felt like I was consistently aware of the need to recycle and that I wasn’t using the 4.4 pound of trash daily. I didn’t think that this was going to be that much of a challenge, although I did know that I was going to have to be changing some of my routines. I had no idea that this whole project was going to change my entire outlook on what I would go about doing with my time, my money, and my trash.
In the beginning, it was a bit more extreme than the rest of the challenge. At first, I had thought that I should not throw away anything. Thus, the first day I did not recycle or compost, but instead, used the paper I had no use for to make snowflakes and other interesting decorations for my dorm room. However, within that first day, I realized how time consuming it would be if I continued saving everything, and making crafts out of it all. I decided needed to be efficient with my time, as I am a student, so I changed the challenge, and I decided to save all of my trash. This included items I recycled, which I kept in my room, and composted, which I did not keep in my room, of that my roommate was rather thankful. I kept these things in my room as a reminder of what I was consuming.
After the challenge was changed, I made several rules. I decided not to use the paper napkins in the cafeteria, because although they are compostable, they aren’t necessary just for a little bit of food on ones face. The single time I did use napkins when I was doing this project was when there was a spill. In this case, they were necessary. This part of my project was reducing the need. I didn’t need to use napkins before, but I would, and did not recognize that I was using them. The same went for paper towels in the bathroom. Where the idea of convenience is welcomed in American society, it’s important to note that getting everything we want all the time makes the world even more unequal. This is fair to no one, and one of my goals was to make the world more equal.
Another rule I made for myself was to discover which types of plastics, glasses, and papers could be recycled in the Harrisonburg area, and then to reduce the amount of the other types of plastics and other materials that couldn’t be recycled that I used, as they would become trash. The plastic wrappings for granola bars and pretzels had to be reduced drastically, or an alternative had to be discovered, and I decided to switch from granola bars to old-fashioned oatmeal. This saved me not only the plastic wrappings, but also quite a bit of money. Eating oatmeal instead of granola bars also made me have to sit down and eat breakfast, wait for food to be ready, and not eat on the go. It was also an ultimate test to see if I was hungry or not, because oatmeal isn’t that much of a palette satisfying dish. Another goal was to reduce the amount of plastic cups, which are plastics #4 and 5, in my life, and avoid any type of disposable options, in general.
The first weekend was slightly rough, as I did some traveling to a family friend’s house, and they were using paper plates and paper napkins because their dishwasher was broken. So I did some dishes that weekend, and made sure that my banana peel and apple cores made it to the outside compost pile. Eating out always adds to the chaotic amount of garbage one consumes, so when Sunday lunch became a food court episode, I had to veer away from the Chinese options, which were being served on unrecyclable Styrofoam, which is plastic #6. The second option was Subway, although I wasn’t sure what I would do with the wax paper wrap and the plastic bag after the sandwich had been consumed. Luckily, when lunching with three-year-olds, a hat can be fashioned out of wax wraps, and for moms, plastic bags are useful for carrying around soiled diapers. So I escaped most of that trash, except for the Grande Starbucks House Roast cup of coffee that my weekend father bought me. Though for my growing coffee love, it was unfortunately contained in an insulated paper, thus unrecyclable cup with a Plastic #4 lid. So I had to hold onto it.
There were several times within my trash saving period that I had to travel, and more things tended to be consumed while I was traveling. When I went home for fall break, the people in out vehicle stopped at Quizno’s for supper, and Starbucks for a caffeine pick-me-up. Though I had packed myself a supper in the cafeteria, by the end of the trip, my trash bag had some granola bar wrappers while staying at home (I was given the option, and I chose granola bars over oatmeal). Some other unrecyclable things were given to me, like mail packaging (there was some mail at home waiting for me when I got home). The ending of the trip back to EMU was unfortunate, as we were in a car accident, and the next day I had to clean the car out. I had to add a good amount of trash to my bag, because there was trash that had been in the car since the previous May. I learned that when one travels, they accumulate more trash, and use more things in general. As Americans, we commute to work, and because of this, we take food in to-go packaging, and accumulate more trash because we take many different things. Because we are in such a hurry, to get from A to B, we end up throwing away everything that we had with us, regardless of whether we knew it was recyclable or not. It takes time to sort through the recyclable and unrecyclable.
Traveling brought many challenges to my plate, but when I told my weekend mom of the idea that I had for saving trash, said she’d seen a television show with a family with children that managed to only use a garbage bag full of trash a month, and also a family of two that only used a shopping bag sized bag of trash in a year. Of my research on saving trash, there were several examples that did the same thing as me, they saved their trash, but for a year at a time, or reduced their trash for a year. Ari Derfel, a Berkeley resident, and a Harvard Law School attendee, saved his trash, reducing as he went, and ended up with 96 cubic feet of trash within the year. Though he did this project from December 2006-December 2007, Ari continued to write for awareness on his blog saveyourtrash.typepad.com until early 2008. In San Francisco article, he noted that when he was little, he had wanted to be a Supreme Court justice to make a difference, but realized later on that it would be better for him to work on helping people one-on-one. So after his project had become public, when people would come up to him and tell him of the difference he’d made in their lives, nothing felt better (Zito, 2007). Ari Derfel donated his trash to an artist. By saving his trash for a year, he brought awareness to the city of San Fransisco. Now, according to an article written in June 2009, San Fransisco has the toughest recycling laws of the country (Cote, 2009).
Matthew and Waveney of Christchurch, New Zealand, who made a decision to go “Rubbish free” for the year of February 2008-February 2009. They used tactics such as reduce, reuse, and recycle, but they also established the idea of “rehoming.” Matthew and Waveney reduced by removing the extra plastic wrappings from their lives, including researching beforehand the plastic wrapping free locations where food could be bought with no plastic involved. They prepared for the project by removing all the things in their home that would cause them to have “rubbish” later on in the year. They replaced these things (such as batteries that were not rechargeable) with things that could be reused and wouldn’t cause waste. They reused as much as possible, by using the plastic #3 and #4 yogurt containers and cloth bags to get foods at the bulk food stores where they shopped. They recycled, of course, and went to some extreme extents to make sure that they could recycle their scrap metal, no matter if it were as small as paper clips and metal toothpaste tubes.
Lastly, Matthew and Waveney used the tactic of rehoming their items that they no longer needed or used, or risked putting in their rubbish bag, and tried to locate someone who would be willing to take it and use it themselves. I have depended on this tactic with my own project at some points. They also used composting, and they made an in-ground compost bucket in their backyard for all of their biodegradable needs. At the end of their year, Matthew and Waveney ended up with a shopping bag full of trash. But only a shopping bag! (http://www.rubbishfreeyear.co.nz/index.php)
After reading their entire blog, I felt overwhelmed, because there was so much more that I could do to make a difference in the amount of trash that I consumed, but as a college student, I neither had the resources nor the time to accomplish any of these things because I am a college student. I was motivated by the idea of rehoming, however, because it is something familiar to me. I have given bags and bags of things to people, or to the thrift store, but never thought much about the fact that I was saving the landfill a lot of space. In my opinion, donating things to a thrift store is almost like throwing them away, because you never have to worry about them, but it is essentially rehoming with a profit for a small (depending on the thrift store) business. It causes the items to be reused, and they aren’t put to waste. Rehoming is the idea that one man’s trash is another man’s treasure. I filled a large garbage bag with clothes and things from my dorm room, that I no longer needed to have. I decided I could survive with out them. I could survive without so much! This hit me like a truck. I was very glad that I’d reached this point.
When I reduced, I refused to use paper towels or napkins. I was disgusted with the idea of using disposable things when there were so many long lasting options for these disposable items. There are so many natural options for our processed American versions. I used less body wash and tooth paste, showered less, reduced the amount of clothes that I washed and the frequency of times that I washed the clothes. (Washing clothes too many times causes them to be worn out more quickly, so I was extending the longevity of my clothes). I reduced how much paper I printed off of my classes, and for nonassignment printing tried to make sure that I used paper that had already been used so that I wasn’t be unnecessary with the amount of paper that I used. Because each American uses an average of seven trees or 680 pounds of paper a year, I wanted to make a denton that number. I like trees. They give shade and green (J) and add calm to an atmosphere.
With my reusing, because I kept my recycling bin in my room, I reused more things. There were empty plastic bottles in it that stayed there a long time (even after I finished my rounds of saving trash). When I was thirsty, I reused these bottles. When I needed to write something down to remember it, I took a sheet of paper out the recycling bin and wrote the note down on it. I also reused the Starbucks cups that I received (or bought for myself), until they were misshapen, soggy, flimsy, and weren’t really doing their jobs anymore. Then they finally made it to the bag of trash. I also made a goal to get a to-go mug that I could use the next time that I got a hot coffee at Starbucks. This is how I feel we should be with every disposable item that we use. Because they are disposable we should use them until they have no other use but to be disposed of.
When I started this project, I made one of my goals to recycle everything that I had, within my capacity that was recyclable. This was one of the hardest things to do, because it is a habit to throw away paper. (In fact, it’s slightly fun to crumble it into a ball and see if you can make it into the trashcan across the room.) So my hardest adjustment was to make sure that I recycled all the paper that I came into contact with and had to dispose of. It was harder at first, because I would actually throw it away, then realize that I didn’t want to do that, and would have to take it back out of my trash and put it into my recycling bin. It became a lot easier to do when I removed my trashcan from my room (it became a container for recyclable plastic bags, and I couldn’t very well fill this with non-plastic bag items). The recycling bin became the priority for anything that I had with no longer any use for.
Because I was becoming so aware of what I needed to do to reduce my environmental impact, I wanted to make a difference on my hall. I put an extra cloth towel in each of the bathroom and one in the kitchen to promote the idea of not using the paper/disposable version. I also made a compost bucket for our hall, with the then almost-empty ice cream bucket that had been sitting in the freezer for the past month. (I finished the slightly freezer-burnt treat with great joy). I just put a label on the bucket, and then started to fill it with my own compost. I made colorful signs with different examples for what could be recycled, composted, thrown away, and a list of ways to reduce. There was previously a sign with the items listed that could be recycled, which was left up, but I also added my colorful one for those whose eyes tend to be more likely to look at pretty things, than yellow signs. These signs were mostly for the girls on my hall to become aware of what could be recycled and what should be thrown away. I think that it made them more aware of where their waste should go, but I’m not sure the signs made a difference, because I still saw pizza boxes in the recycling bin and coffee grounds in the trashcan. I’ve also had some oppression against the idea of using the cloth towels in the bathroom. The important thing for me was to get the ladies to be aware.
I felt it was also important to note that although Harrisonburg recycles plastics #1 and #2, they do not recycle plastics #3 and #4, which are commonly used in yogurt containers and butter tubs. This makes it harder for conscientious recyclers, who don’t want to fill the landfills with of everything they guiltily consume. There are also no local places to recycle lesser-used plastics #5 and #6, or any places to recycle Styrofoam nearby. The closest place is in Maryland, in a suburb of Washington D.C.
Thus, it would be rather difficult to try to live as a regular American does, and use the amount of plastic that an average American uses, and be able to conveniently recycle it locally. However, in Harrisonburg, one doesn’t have to go far to be able to get good natural, bulk, or local food—the Dayton Farmer’s Market offers food in bulk, though it is in plastic bags. The Harrisonburg Farmer’s Market also offers all local farmers’ own food for people to buy. With the local options of thrift stores to remove things without use, the large amount of people interested in living in intentional communities, and the easily accessible option of biking, there are many different ways that a person could accomplish living in Harrisonburg with a minimal trash diet.
With this project I realized how much I didn’t need, what I could live without. I became more aware of what the world had, and I felt I had too much in the world. In the devotional book, The Basic Trek, they talk about the ecological footprints of different cultures in the world. Americans have the biggest ecological footprints, being 30 acres per American. The average footprint in India is 3 acres per person. The average footprint in the entire world is 8 acres per person, and this takes up more than the world has to offer (Schrock-Shenk)! Americans would have to reduce to about 1/3 the amount of what they presently use.
My new goal with this project, even after my trash-saving episode was over, was to reduce the ecological footprint of myself. I use too much water, I eat too much food, and I cause too much fossil fuel go into the atmosphere. I don’t give back as much as I take, and I feel guilty about it. That is the hardest step—I have to find a balance of reducing and saving that I feel comfortable with so I don’t feel guilty about using so much that other people don’t have. I’d rather have less and not be as happy, if I knew that someone else had enough and was happy. But I am happy and I’m warm and comfortable. And though I should be happy, whenever I think about what the majority of the world is experiencing, what people I know are experiencing as they are doing outreach in Africa, Central America, in Europe, I cannot feel happy. I want to give and give and give of myself until there is nothing left of me to give. I cannot stay in this place with this unlimited amount of things, food, and warmth.
I do not find joy in wasting things that other people need, which happens in the dorm with the heat because it is an uncomfortable temperature all the time, so we have to open the windows to feel comfortable in the heat. I do not find joy in the idea that several girls on my hall cannot handle the idea of recycling paper, so they throw it in the trash. They contribute to the 75% of biodegradable and recyclable waste that is thrown away everyday, and cause the landfills to be 75% unnecessary. I know someone who chooses not to compost and recycle and is happy to not be a part of making the world a greener place. Matthew and Waveney had the same type of oppression while doing their projects. There were people who started doing “a rubbish bag a week” projects to replace the space of to their own “reducing” project. This is discouraging, and I feel the same way when people around me that I care about reject the idea of composting because it smells bad, recycling because it’s less convenient, or they reject the idea of reducing the amount of paper towels they use to dry their hands because wiping their hands on their pants is too much of a hassle. These are convenient, but so unneeded.
I feel that Americans are so used to convenience that we can’t embrace that having what we want all the time is making us universal brats, in the entire global scheme of things. However, just like with the Civil Rights movement, it cannot be just a change of habit. It also has to be a change of heart. This is something that I feel can be met with little steps in the right direction. If each American decided to have a reusable water bottle instead of insisting on using disposable water bottles (which in fact can and should be recycled), rather than using two million bottles every five minutes, there would only be 308,102,488 total used in the country, rather than 12,614,400,000,000. That’s twelve trillion water bottles per year, which is about how many dollars the United States government is in debt! Thus, little changes can make the biggest difference ever.
There are several things that I plan on continuing to do as I go with my post-project feelings. There’s no way that I can’t continue to recycle—it had become a habit that I plan on continuing as long as I am capable. Though sometimes my muscle memory in my arms tries to throw it in the trashcan that has been relocated back into my room, I make sure that it ends up in the right place. I try to reduce the amount of waste that I consume. I have started buying foods in bulk (cocoa powder, because I love to make my own hot chocolate), and I still walk out of the bathroom with wet hands if there is no other option, and leave the cafeteria with hands smelling like something I just ate because I didn’t want to use a napkin to clean up the little bit of a spill I made. I still only wash the clothes that are completely necessary to clean, as little as possible.
I have continued to reduce the amount of things that I have in my room, partly because I am moving out and I don’t need these things as much, by nature I’m a very messy person, and I realize as much as I think I’ll need them at some point, there is a very low possibility that I will actually need the things that I keep saying that I will need.
One of the biggest things that I have in my future, because of the partial impact of this project, is to be a participant in the YES program. Youth Evangelism Services (YES) is a program for young adults, ages 18-30, who get to do short term mission outreach programs. (www.emm.org) I have spoken to several people who have done the YES program within the last year, and also have spoken to some participants that are in the process of doing YES right now. I feel like it is a fit for me. When I went to visit the training center, because of my interest and my friends in the training, I felt called to be there and help and do. Doing is something I have been battling with since I have been on campus, because I have felt like I haven’t been able to help others and do as much as I need to since I have been here. Because I have this calling, I know that I will be able to experience the reduced ecological footprint by being in another country—I welcome it. I will get to live with reduced accessibility and less of everything in general. Then what I have here in America, when I come back, will not be taken for granted any longer, and I will be truly thankful for everything that I have here, and I will have experienced a reduced lifestyle. I will be able to continue to feel as if I have made a difference.
This project has truly opened my eyes to the path that I need to take with my life, and the steps that I need to take as I go. It has given me challenges, but more importantly, it has helped me grow mentally and spiritually, because of the indirect connections to my yearnings in life. Because of the simple idea of “taking out” the trash, I have changed my entire outlook on life, and what I will do with it. This project went from environmental impact to spiritual impact. I cannot wait to see where it will take me.

